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Compare and Despair

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1.
Endless 02:51
my endless list of things to do just gets longer gotta put you down my friend my friend my friend my suffering, goodbye to you my hand is always on command my choice what don’t u understand my dude is always in red my hand is always misled live and learn you’re always gonna burn in the steam it’s rising my concern so put down all those things you have it’s your choice if you wanna be bad I run I run I run I run so far away don’t know where I am my dog my dog my dog my dog run back to me, the memory paper hold it in my hand and everything feels so strange just like power this land is only where I stand meltdown in the soul of my command my due is always in red my wound is always well fed
2.
Volcano 02:27
blame it on me you’re a volcano contact with you isn’t everything that I want to assume I’m slowly standing up between the walls your bad moon says I wanna feel good I wanna be good It’s always fucked up the way you called me useless I feel a shame that I can’t contain contact with me isn’t everything that you want to believe I’m just a dull card on your table pick me up I got the yellow eyes and I’m watching you I’m slowly standing up between the walls your bad moon says I wanna feel good I wanna be good It’s always fucked up the way you called me useless
3.
Bite 02:51
Wendy touched their hand on my shoulder last night They said I did a good show then they took a bite Now im hangin tall with blood in my cup Its this resilience I gotta keep up Celebrate us has it been a whole year You know my face has shrunk since you left me here I’m not a dud you got me workin’ alright Im just a little sore from the shotgun bite Im lying down feeling bad I repel everything and it knocks me back Don’t look at me when I chew my nails just let me snack in peace I wanna set sail Get outta my head you're just an anxious sound your plans fell thru now u want me around Im lying down feeling bad I repel everything and it knocks me back
4.
Nice Try 02:18
Im half the way up and my meter is fucked but I still try still cry My headache is thick as I sleep in your ditch Im a healer, feeler I wonder if I could ever be less angry as far as I remember I am a shit talker holding the candy of nature in my fist I bite a chunk outta the apple like this Don’t fall she told me as she guided my hips Explosion of information fillin my head On the subway there could be gunfire and it wont distract me from Im sittin in shit all my heros been hit It was bad land oh man When two become one all the damage is done Small mind, nice try She shot me a stare and I really don’t care because
5.
your mouth is just a conversation to me it’s over my head as we slip in and out of this alcohol dream the scraps of days gone by begin to settle in my mind and this alligator talk it leaves my face as blank as you can be and we are living proof of the transfer its just a matter of time before you overpower me and rehearse your life story as I nod my fucking head at you an absent mind is what you need I guess its just an observation to me The way you exchange These words they fall out your mouth And spill all down your sock This alligator talk
6.
My Side 02:47
I’m goin out I see u there I’m on the street I feel you there I’m on my back I knew you there I’m on the track I’ll sue you there And I hail mary on through Americas on my side America shoots me down America The masterpiece is in my home and it only puts the sad on me The enemy is in my hands and we only go down Don’t hit me with necessary Don’t hit me with monetary Cuz why wait im looking at you And I stare because I care yes I do
7.
Deb 01:20
8.
Mental 01:40
mental illness it grabs you and pulls you down under you feel so much what you cant see are the children by the dozens they hold you and it made me feel happy and you’re running around and you’re running in circles and its hard to go to work its hard to speak your mind you don’t know what to do when its hard to be alive time it goes on and the fog lifts like a curtain all at once you see the same person looking to place the blame and im looking to do the same and you’re soaking in the guilt and I don’t know what to say I don’t know how to say
9.
Glass Hill 02:51
encased in glass I hold the past to me we will never let go here down below I believe now the day is waking me up I crawl back A jungle of weeds they slither around my kitchen Determined is he to poison the mouth I've hidden Go on tell me now why you live so far away on the glass hill encased in glass I hold the past to me here down below we will never let go I believe go on tell me know why you live so far away on the glass hill
10.
Cycle 03:10
I feel like I have zero control Zero control look at me just a kid like you I'm going nowhere I always knew I would cycle my way Right back to you In a minute oh in a minute I’ll be ashamed I'm not getting any younger This is all I know when I'm under you So get in my way I'll take my time yea Take my sweet time In a minute oh in a minute I’ll be ashamed I'm not getting any younger This is all I know when I'm under you I feel like I have zero control Zero control
11.
Discovery 03:01
discovery make it known anticipation rising the thirst of wanting you to recognize im looking for something to lift me up residue of confusion all across my soft skin im ageless in the corner of your guest room maybe I was only built to wait face down run home cuz I made it known the boy I love he tells the world I cant feel this way I just wanna run away distress hold it in and I escalate shot down it goes on and on and on I wanna run away I just wanna run away Discovery wears me out I know my hand escapes you Im weightless in the corner of your guest room Im looking for something to lift me up I just wanna run away
12.
Little 02:25
little seed he comes around I wanna make him mine vocalize and tell us why you think that we should try oh no I do it again be my friend little me I walk around and do the same things rest in me the little voice that tells me how to be happy not me come undone half of my life I turn away and see the same face talk to me little stray head of fleas I wanna keep u clean come home I lock myself inside a room for two happy ghosts live so long little seed rides on my song power will never change the hour now’s the time to run away
13.
Cloud 02:26
here comes austin he did something wicked again and it happens again and he does it to me in the moments I wait I worry I do your whole life you anticipated wrecking the world with your primitive excuses therefore the universe is the sinner that pulls on all of me and every you

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released January 31, 2020

Artwork by Lou Elda
Produced by Katie Von Schleicher with Julian Fader, Adam Brisbin and Nick LLobet
Mixed by Julian Fader
Additional mixing by Carlos Hernandez
Engineering by Julian Fader with Katie Von Schleicher, Nick LLobet and Adam Brisbin
Mastered by Carl Saff
All songs written by Nick LLobet
Songs performed by Nick LLobet, Julian Fader, Adam Brisbin, Katie Von Schleicher and Daniel Siles
Thanks to Ben Goldberg and Emma Buchanan

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